The day has finally come. Why does it feel so normal? It shouldn’t. My Daddy’s been gone for ten years today. I thought it would feel different somehow, but it doesn’t. The night he died I remember a few of the swirling thoughts and fears racing through my head, and one of them was about today. “What will life look like ten years from now?”It was an impossible thought, the future looked so dark, so bleak, and terribly scary that night my world finally shattered. It had been threateningly cracked before, but the tinkling sound of falling, shattered hope startled me into the arms of my Heavenly Father. It was there that I found new hope, true comfort, and a peace for the future. “He leads me beside still waters, He restores my soul. “He is FAITHFUL!
Today Peter and I have been married for seven years! My husband has been an instrument of healing in my life, gently helping me put the pieces back together, and making something much, much better than it was. I never doubted God’s plan for brokenness in my life because Daddy showed me the purpose and the joy in it. But my vision was blurred by tears and I could not see the beautiful design coming together. A wife and a mother is all I ever wanted to be when I was little, and that is exactly the life God has given me. In marriage I have found the safety in which to heal and grow, and in motherhood I have found what Donna so well described as “accelerated sanctification”. I am not the same person as I was seven years ago when I became Peter’s wife. God is still teaching me to trust Him in all things, and the journey continues!
I love you, Peter! Happy Anniversary!
Click here to listen to a song that speaks my heart today. (It runs a little too long and the last part is freaky, please ignore.)